Attention Deficit

10:31AM Study physiology, since I have that quiz on Wednesday.
What is going on in my kitchen? That’s weird stirring, stirring, stirring
Mom, stop singing.
Flight back to school tomorrow. TOMORROW. Check in.
Okay, phew.

10:56AM I have to pack my things.
Am I hungry?
No. I am really fat right now. Have I really not exercised in over a week?
These leggings I’m wearing, do I bring them? I think they’re unflattering. Useful?
Email is here! Meetings to schedule, ideas to brainstorm, work outs to choreograph. What will children like to do? Will they like me?

11:25AM That song worked well on piano
I’m going to miss playing when I’m back at school. The house is empty for a bit so I needed to get that in. Part piano part cigarette smoking.
Okay my sister will be home soon.
Hairspray. Mint.

12:00PM Seriously?
Girl you brought the house down in the performance I just watched on Youtube.
Okay I really need to pack.

12:05PM Do not take anything. You need to prove to yourself you can go the day without the help of pills, of anything really. Eat breakfast?
Yeah, that’s a normal thing. I can be normal person hungry.
Is this what withdrawal looks like? You know, on a mental scale? I think I am totally fine, functional; I cannot focus.
Does anyone understand?